hope S P R I N G S eternal

*I wonder why some guys are so0o0o0 conceited and so0o0o0o dense.. nakakainis.*

I'm starting to really hate this guy already (who happens to be a close friend of mine.. well.. he used to be). We sort of "got involved" secretly before and then he "changed his mind". I try to act as normal as possible around him especially when our friends are there.. but it so0o0o damn hard! Just seeing his face reminds me of the moments we've shared.. tapos he keeps on teasing me pa! Para talagang nanadya! *sigh*

What still confuses me is why he did it. Why did he waste all that time on me? I mean we weren't even having an 'intimate' relationship. I wasn't giving him money. I don't understand, I can't figure out what I meant to him.

I tried asking him probably a hundred times before but all he could say was "sorry". Fcuk.

KisH TickleS
7:40 PM

|

I went blog hopping kanina.. nakakainggit ung mga blogs na laging updated.. naaalala ko tuloy noon, ganun din ako.. lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko sa araw-araw kinukwento ko.. pati ung maliliit na details.. kumpleto. Pero ngayon, wala na akong panahon para makagawa ng bagong entry.. swertihan na lang kung makapag-internet ako sa isang linggo.. haaay..

I feel so alone this past few weeks.. maybe because I really am alone.. I dont have anyone to hang out with at school.. no one to talk to during breaks.. no one to have lunch with.. ngayon lang nagsisink in sa akin yung consequences ng mga actions ko.. I knew it was wrong.. but still, I let it happen.. *sigh* why do I always get myself in trouble? I feel soooo guilty up to now.. =(

-----------

Para Sa Iyo,

Nais ko malaman mo na hindi ko sinasadyang saktan ang damdamin mo. Nagkamali ako nang hayaan kong kontrolin ako ng emosyon ko. Sakim nga siguro ako at hindi ko inisip ang maramramdaman mo. Nalulungkot ako na makita kang umiiyak at nasasaktan ng dahil sa akin. Mahalaga ka sa akin at ayokong masira ang magandang relasyon natin. Alam kong hindi magiging madali ang pagpapatawad mo sa akin at hindi ko rin inaasahan na makakalimutan mo kaagad ang lahat ng nangyari. Nasira ko ang iyong pagtitiwala at alam kong hindi madaling mabuo uli yun. Pero nais kong malaman mo na hindi ako titigil hanggat hindi ko naibabalik ang pagtitiwala mo sa akin.. kahit gaano pa ito katagal, maghihintay ako. Uli, humihingi ako sa iyo ng tawad.. sa lahat ng nagawa ko sa iyong pagkakamali. Mahal na mahal kita.. at ayokong mawala ka sa buhay ko.

-Ako Pa Rin

KisH TickleS
6:59 PM

|

loving you is something i shouldn't do...but I did. and I still do. ang hirap mong kalimutan lalo pa't i get to see you often.. as in almost everyday. para bang ang liit-liit ng mundo natin pero di tayo pwedeng mag-fit. lahat na ata ng paraan ginawa ko para lang maka move on at makalimot sa pesteng feelings na to. wa effect.. kahit di ako nagtitext, text ka naman ng text. kahit anong iwas ko sa daan kung saan lagi kita nakakasalubong, makikita at makikita pa rin kita.. ang hirap magkunwari na okay na ang lahat between us.. ewan ko ba.. siguro up to now, still hoping and waiting pa rin ako..

we're friends and that's what pains me more. i know we can never be more than that.. *sigh*

KisH TickleS
5:25 PM

|

Your Ideal Relationship is Casual Dating

Maybe you're looking for love...
But mostly you're looking for fun.
You could get serious with the right person.
For now, though, you're enjoying playing the field.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

wahahaha! asteeeg..

KisH TickleS
9:39 PM

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

KisH TickleS
9:37 PM

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is high.
You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.
Having your own life is very important for you...
Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

is it obvious that im bored right now? (^^,)

KisH TickleS
9:19 PM

You Are A Friendly Ex

You and your ex are just friends - great friends really.
(At least that's what you keep telling yourself!)
While civility is a good thing, make sure you're not secretly wanting more...

What Type of Ex Are You?

KisH TickleS
9:15 PM

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

>>wait a minute.. parang swak na swak lahat ah... lalo na ung huli! wahahaha! sapul! nyahaha!

KisH TickleS
8:38 PM

|

Metal-Mouth Pinay

~loves~

~hates~

Make some sense