hope S P R I N G S eternal

I missed my Microbiology and Parasitology class last Saturday. Examination week is coming up and I still haven’t studied. I haven’t secured a test permit yet.

Why? I had recurrent fever. I thought it was just stress that was causing it. But when I started to have chills and my temperature reached 40°C, my mom had to rush me to the hospital. There, I was diagnosed with Typhoid Fever Type B (you get this from eating contaminated foods and drinks – isaw, fishball, foods from karinderia, palamig, etc.). Screw BK (Bulubunduking Kanin). I will never eat in that place ever again!

But thank God I’m feeling a lot better now. I haven’t had a fever since yesterday. =)

IRR8, thanks.. I know now how much you care and love me.. love ko din kayo! Mwuah!

KisH TickleS
9:11 PM

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i hate them. why do they have to be so bitchy about everything? always complaining.. getting all the attentions.. flirting with every guy in the class.. acting like they're superior of us.. when they can't even pass a simple 50 item quiz! they probably think they could finish nursing with their boobies and booties.. gawd. they're freaking annoying!

i think i like him.. even if he is my biggest competition in class.. i really admire guys who do well in academics. what can say, im a sucker for geniuses. (^_^)

chikas.chikas.chikas. it has only been 3 weeks since classes started yet there are already a lot of gossips going around the four walls of our classroom. from 'who likes whom' to 'who slept with whom'.. haay.. hopefully there aren't any gossips about me.

KisH TickleS
6:20 PM

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October 29-30
- stayed in Baguio
- bought a jacket, 2 shirts and marifel's birthday gift
- played Pinoy Henyo with family while having GSM Blue.. *wink wink* sort of an early birthday celebration.. it was hilarious. :)

October 31, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (US) !!
- sa lahat ng nag-greet sa akin.. sa STATS, sa mga taong yufi elbi, sa maksci peeps, sa parokya ni Tita Leah, sa mga kababata ko, sa mga hardcore student nurses ng fatima, kay jai, sa family and relatives ko.. sa inyong lahat.. MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT! Gusto ko malaman niyo na hanggang end of this year, aantayin ko mga regalo niyo.. wahahaha! remind ko na rin Christmas gift niyo sa akin.. hehe (--,)
- made my specialty, strawberry graham cake.. as usual, marami nanamang naglaway sa gawa ko.. hehehe..
- kenji, my baby tarat, mahal ka ni ninang!
- chikahan, lokohan, kakornihan at takutan.. salamat darbong melvin at esti.. dahil sa inyo, puyat nanaman ako.. wahaha!

November 1
- visited Lolo Ito's grave.. had to stay there for almost 4 hours just to make sure na walang nenenok sa mga kandila namin.. hehe.. ayun.. lusaw lahat nung umalis na kami.. (--,)
- STATS, im really looking forward to our bonding session this coming November 9.. miss you guys a lot! mwuah!
- been doing a lot of thinking lately.. i want to break free!! my heart screams FREEDOM! ayun lang.. hahaha!

KisH TickleS
5:39 PM

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Milenyo visited a couple of weeks ago. We had no electricity for two weeks. No water for three f*ckin days. And up to now, phone's still dead. Crap.

Semester's finally over. Thank goodness. No more sleepless nights. (yeah right.. as if i spent those nights studying.. hehe.) No more quizzes, exams, assignments, papers, seminars, demos.. *sigh*.. at least for another 3 weeks. I can't wait to go to La Union..

Oh, and my birthday's coming up.. ooppss.. i mean OUR birthday. I don't have any plans yet.. but surely there wont be any drinking session.. shocking isn't it? well, im trying to start a new life with a clean slate now. *wink*

I'm getting bigger and bigger. Arrrggh! Gotta lose weight! Fast!

KisH TickleS
2:27 PM

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today, i was supposed to practice for our seminar.. instead, i went online.. chatted with my some of my close friends (hazel, chichay, jhoe.. oh and hazel's loverboy chris.. hehe). it was fun.. talking to them makes me miss them more.. don't worry guys.. i'll come visit you probably in 2 years or so.

damn. still raining outside.. makes me feel sleepy. which reminds me.. i still haven't eaten lunch yet.. as usual, got too lazy again. hehe..

my parents left for davao this morning.. didn't even notice them leave. i was sound asleep.. dreaming of.. nam? err.. hahaha! this nam thing is crazy. is it weird to miss someone you haven't even been with? totally. haha! no, i dont miss nam. or do i? waaaah! stress is making me insane! think dollars macel, think!

KisH TickleS
4:00 PM

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bagong layout. same boring life. haay.

ilang gabi na akong sinisipon at inuubo. ang hirap matulog sa gabi. di ka makahingi sa ilong. pag sa bibig naman, manunuyo lalamunan mo. at dahil dito, lalo ka uubuhin. parang ka na ring namimili kung paano ka tu-torture-in.. kung dudukutin ba yung kanang mata mo o ung kaliwa. ang hirap di ba?

malapit na matapos ang semester. exams nanaman. kuhanan ng grades. enrollment. tapos panibagong semester uli. onti na lang, malapit na ko kumita ng dollars.

*toot toot, toot toot*

"if you are an animal, what would you be? a rabbit or a snail? rabbits are the most sexually active animals and can have sex many times a day. snails live 80 years and will have sex only once in their lifetime but the orgasm lasts for 18 hours. would you go for quantity or quality?"

hmm.. this one's tough. siguro i'd go for rabbit na lang. sabi kasi di ba 18 hours ang orgasm ng snails, eh kaso isang beses lang ang sex. 18 hours of satisfaction kapalit ng 8742 hours na wala ng sex? (hindi ko sinasabing bawat oras kelangan ng sex ha) pero sabagay, after siguro ng 18 hours na yun, ubos na enerhiya mo. wala ka ng powers nun. kaya nga siguro once lang sila magsex. matindi to. kelangan ma-send ko din to sa iba. wehehe. (--,)

*toot toot, toot toot*
"dun ako sa 18 hours." -lagi siguro to bitin.. buwahaha!

*toot toot, toot toot*
"rabbit ako. kahit siguro minuto lang orgasm, kung aaraw-arawin ko, makakaipon din ako ng 18 hours. araw-araw pa akong nakangiti." - may point ka dun ha.

*toot toot, toot toot*
"ang baboy nito. kadiri ha." -impakta. nakakainis.

*toot toot, toot toot*
"itulog mo na yan macel. idaan mo na lang sa panaginip. hehe. =)" -ano daw?

KisH TickleS
9:39 PM

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September 8-9

- didn't attend class.. Thank God our instructor was absent.

- spent my weekend at yufi elbi with my brods and sisses, met the new members and bonded with them

- participated in the PALCASAN

- played games like pinoy henyo, manibela and charades

- went ghost hunting at around 4:30am (kinda stupid though coz the sun rose even before we reached the "scariest" place in campus - Never Ending Bridge)

September 10

- wasn't able to attend the mass because i was too tired and sleepy (im a bad girl.. i know.)

September 11

- results of our midterms were given.. got the highest scores.. again. hahaha! yey!

- didn't think medical transcriptioning would be fun.. but it was. can't wait for our next session. (^^,)

September 12

- HE attended the class (after two consecutive absences).. I was hoping he'd get some sort of infection or disease and die.. bummer.. it was (one of) the most annoying 3 hours of my life.

September 13

- saw Chris and Mels.. they were waiting for HER (I think..) so I left. I don't want to be in another awkward situation with HER again.

September 14

- my first blood donation.. I have a type O blood, RH positive (weird coz when we tested our blood in our Anatomy and Physiology class, my professor - who's a doctor - told me I was type B.) After draining 450ml of blood out of me, they asked me to lie down for 10 minutes before leaving.. so I did. They also gave us apple juice and ensaymada. When 10 minutes was over, I stood up. Suddenly my legs felt like jelly so I sat down again. A friend, who was sitting at the folding bed next to mine, noticed. She told me, "gaga, namumutla ka. okay ka lang?" Apparently, one of the doctors heard her and approached me. She said "iha, namumutla ka nga. higa ka ulit. mga 15 minutes pa." And she gave me another apple juice. After 15 minutes, I stood up. I still felt dizzy but I didn't mind. I was in hurry.. I was already late for my next class. I was about to leave when another doctor stopped me. She told me I still look pale and asked me to lie down AGAIN so she could check my blood pressure. Then they gave me my third apple juice.. and my fourth. From 130/70, my bp became 100/60. They checked my hemoglobin count and it was okay. So they told me I was probably just nervous and in shock because this was my first time.

- totally pissed off with one of my groupmates in STS. she is soooo fuckin bossy. she complains a lot and blames me for being a procrastinator. well hello?! I already did our written report, edited and typed everything, without any help from her, thank you very much. Grrrr! She volunteered to photocopy all the handouts but she still hasn't done anything! Im going to kill that bitch the next time I hear her complain again. >_<

KisH TickleS
3:08 PM

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"There is always some madness in love, but there is also always some reason in madness. You cannot love anyone until you understand that you cannot love everyone."

Belated happy birthday Jurenchi Paraan (September 1) and Dianne Salvaleon (September 4)! =) I love you guys! Mwuah!

KisH TickleS
5:43 PM

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*I wonder why some guys are so0o0o0 conceited and so0o0o0o dense.. nakakainis.*

I'm starting to really hate this guy already (who happens to be a close friend of mine.. well.. he used to be). We sort of "got involved" secretly before and then he "changed his mind". I try to act as normal as possible around him especially when our friends are there.. but it so0o0o damn hard! Just seeing his face reminds me of the moments we've shared.. tapos he keeps on teasing me pa! Para talagang nanadya! *sigh*

What still confuses me is why he did it. Why did he waste all that time on me? I mean we weren't even having an 'intimate' relationship. I wasn't giving him money. I don't understand, I can't figure out what I meant to him.

I tried asking him probably a hundred times before but all he could say was "sorry". Fcuk.

KisH TickleS
7:40 PM

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I went blog hopping kanina.. nakakainggit ung mga blogs na laging updated.. naaalala ko tuloy noon, ganun din ako.. lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko sa araw-araw kinukwento ko.. pati ung maliliit na details.. kumpleto. Pero ngayon, wala na akong panahon para makagawa ng bagong entry.. swertihan na lang kung makapag-internet ako sa isang linggo.. haaay..

I feel so alone this past few weeks.. maybe because I really am alone.. I dont have anyone to hang out with at school.. no one to talk to during breaks.. no one to have lunch with.. ngayon lang nagsisink in sa akin yung consequences ng mga actions ko.. I knew it was wrong.. but still, I let it happen.. *sigh* why do I always get myself in trouble? I feel soooo guilty up to now.. =(

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Para Sa Iyo,

Nais ko malaman mo na hindi ko sinasadyang saktan ang damdamin mo. Nagkamali ako nang hayaan kong kontrolin ako ng emosyon ko. Sakim nga siguro ako at hindi ko inisip ang maramramdaman mo. Nalulungkot ako na makita kang umiiyak at nasasaktan ng dahil sa akin. Mahalaga ka sa akin at ayokong masira ang magandang relasyon natin. Alam kong hindi magiging madali ang pagpapatawad mo sa akin at hindi ko rin inaasahan na makakalimutan mo kaagad ang lahat ng nangyari. Nasira ko ang iyong pagtitiwala at alam kong hindi madaling mabuo uli yun. Pero nais kong malaman mo na hindi ako titigil hanggat hindi ko naibabalik ang pagtitiwala mo sa akin.. kahit gaano pa ito katagal, maghihintay ako. Uli, humihingi ako sa iyo ng tawad.. sa lahat ng nagawa ko sa iyong pagkakamali. Mahal na mahal kita.. at ayokong mawala ka sa buhay ko.

-Ako Pa Rin

KisH TickleS
6:59 PM

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